GIVE ME THERAPY, I'M A WALKING TRAVESTY.

twentythree y.o. geographer, barista, yoga practitioner. University College London. born and bred in the lil' island of Singapore. constantly searching for answers. extremely flawed, especially when it comes to imposing standards on others, expecting too much, not knowing when to close her mouth (to shut the fuck up or to stop eating). too crazy for her own good and has to be taken with a massive handful of salt. adores backpacking, hitch-hiking, hill-walking, red wine, whiskey, cocktails, fine food and good conversations.
REMINDER:
"open your heart. someone will come. someone will come for you. but you'd have to open your heart first."


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Thursday, May 31, 2012
◔ 7:25 AM // ✎ 0 comment(s)		❝ Last Band Camp of my life. ❞

Happier days.


And so we finally broke camp and now I am waiting for my father to pick me up after band camp and all.

Many many regrets this band camp. Really glad that I have friends who constantly are willing to talk to me like Elroy, Nath, Peter, Munam etc but like most of the time I feel lonelier than ever I guess. Sucks even more that everyone is attached and everyone is with their boyfriends and everything it's always just me. Alone. In my room. It's a really sad feeling I'd be throwing tantrums but I have a feeling that I have kinda grown out of it already. Maturity? Or is it just me giving up and like not giving a shit anymore.

Life goes on.

I miss the good old days, those moments that I feel as though like these friends that I meet here will be my friends for life. There were even times where I felt as though I have found my soulmate. But the person that I thought I found doesn't seem to want to talk to me much anymore. Either it's that or it is... We have kind of lost the energy to talk to each other. I don't know.

Right now I feel this super emptiness but I know I have to move on I guess. Yes, I had good moments in this camp, awesome times and great laughter... But I just felt that it could have been better and I feel as though... This doesn't cut it for the last band camp of my life.

But there's nothing I can do I guess. This IS the last band camp of my life. I guess I just have to treasure it as it is. And I still feel this insane sadness and pity and... I don't know.

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