twentythree y.o. geographer, barista, yoga practitioner. University College London. born and bred in the lil' island of Singapore. constantly searching for answers. extremely flawed, especially when it comes to imposing standards on others, expecting too much, not knowing when to close her mouth (to shut the fuck up or to stop eating). too crazy for her own good and has to be taken with a massive handful of salt. adores backpacking, hitch-hiking, hill-walking, red wine, whiskey, cocktails, fine food and good conversations.
REMINDER:
"open your heart. someone will come. someone will come for you. but you'd have to open your heart first."
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| Monday, October 24, 2011
◔ 2:14 PM // ✎ 0 comment(s) | ❝ Results :( ❞ |
HI.
I decided to come here just cause I have no where else to rant to, so bear with me.
I don't know but... My results were pretty FMLish. Although I guess I have no right to complain? Seeing that I have friends who have trouble even promoting (Letian + Varun all the best guys, you will be fine!) and like... Jovi who scored a point higher than me at MYEs got the same score as me this time.
Albeit the fact most people jumped up to 10 points...
And I plummeted into this abyss of darkness. It feels like shit to be the only people "deproving" when everyone else improved.
It feels worse, when people improved and scored super high for EOYs and it's freaking 70%. And it pulls their MYEs up.
While for me it's the opposite.
MYEs please save my fucking ass. I pray that your 30% will go far.
It feels worse, though, cause... The more you expect the harder you fall? I was so bent on doing well, and when I did not my world fell apart.
I guess I shouldn't find excuses for myself, but at the end of the day I still cannot figure out what fucking went wrong, basically everything that went wrong just went wrong, all that could have happened happened.
And to make things even shittier... Well most of my scores were 1 mark away from the next grade. The grade boundary is 70, I get 69 and what not, etc etc. Sucks balls.
Sorry to all Christians out there, but I fucking hate ACS for imposing Christianity on us, on me, who has lost faith in faith. Apparently if I did write about God being the "ultimate creator" the "ultimate scientist" who created the world from nothing or what the fuck (i.e. the Book of Genesis), I'd have gotten 20/25. Thank goodness I did not fail, cause if Christianity and God caused me to fail English, I'd have raged a whole fucking lot more.
It's quite sad though, I failed in all my targets and expectations and what not. So much for lunar birthday luck huh.
Did a bit of retail therapy to cheer me up though, busted shit loads of money on this when I still have $100+ worth of phone bills to pay.
And to think that that humongous sum was due to someone......
In other news, a gigantic THANK YOU to everyone who cared and gave me words of concern and hugs and etc. Love you all. Labels: daily, rants, school
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