twentythree y.o. geographer, barista, yoga practitioner. University College London. born and bred in the lil' island of Singapore. constantly searching for answers. extremely flawed, especially when it comes to imposing standards on others, expecting too much, not knowing when to close her mouth (to shut the fuck up or to stop eating). too crazy for her own good and has to be taken with a massive handful of salt. adores backpacking, hitch-hiking, hill-walking, red wine, whiskey, cocktails, fine food and good conversations.
REMINDER:
"open your heart. someone will come. someone will come for you. but you'd have to open your heart first."
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| Saturday, December 27, 2014
◔ 12:31 PM // ✎ 0 comment(s) | ❝ Holding you close. ❞ |
O: Meow. Meine I did not know that I would be free. That's the bottom line. I found out that I would be about 5 days ago or whatever it was and decided to take an opportunity
Me: It's ok yeah? I will just suck it up
O: I don't want you to suck it up. Because that makes me feel that I've done something really wrong but I really do not think that I have
Me: Ok.
O: ? Darling please. I miss you so very much
Me: So me asking you if you were free before 13th January months ago doesn't count right? Even when I've told you time and again that I don't mind coming to find you, even for a weekend.
O: You telling me that I don't want to see you, when I do, makes me feel very sad.
Me: I'm sure that doesn't feel as sad as me feeling like you'd very much rather spend time with your friends
O: The two are not mutually exclusive you know. I can love you, miss you, want to spend time with you, and still want to spend time with my friends
Me: Even when your girlfriend said she'd love to come by on those exact dates?
O: I would feel unreasonable asking you to come for 2 days. It's £600 cheapest. Return flight.
Me: £600 is a month's pay
O: I would feel really very unfair asking you to do that. Precisely. A month's work.
Me: Why do you think I work so hard? It's all to get money to buy tickets to find you yeah?
O: But you don't need to do that. I'll love you no matter what.
Me: I love you too and I miss seeing you yeah? I miss you so much I'd die to see you
O: I miss seeing you too. But you instantly assume I'm putting other people before you all the time. I'm sure that's how you feel and I can imagine it makes you feel really worthless. But it's not the case. Really, truly, absolutely not the case. I'm just trying to have my year abroad, to balance working hard, playing hard, and missing you. And it hurts every minute I'm apart from you, knowing that I'm apart. But that was always how it was going to be this year. And I'm really sorry that it hurts you so much. Really truly very sorry, I can't help it at all. But I love you :) :) xxxx
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